Again another interesting session from the Gateway Experience that has not been the total disaster I though initially it would be, although I have found the first important barrier: my fear. The exercise has as a goal to put us in the mental state which allows you to experiment the firsts steps of an OBE (an out-of-body experience). The preliminary steps went ok with no problems (energy conversion box, resonant tuning, energy balloon, etc) till I reached Focus 10. This time I tried directly in bed instead of on the couch, and I have found easily to relax completely. The feeling of Focus 10 for me is like a soft vibration which I have asked my mind to “note” down, so it becomes easier to reach this state whenever I may not be using the tapes.
So the session was going. When the moment to initiate the separation from the body arrived, seeing myself floating up-wards, calm and relaxed, my mind has struck me with fear. Irrational and without any reason, but strongly present. I understand that this fear comes from not knowing what is out there, in the astral, what I would find. However, I knew it was going to happen, so I had to control it somehow. To do so I have started chatting with myself. I have said mentally that this fear was not rational, that, in the case I would find, once in the OBE, any being (let’s call it ghost), it would be friendly, and I remembered that I also had my energy balloon around me, so there was no need to be afraid.
In all books, trainings and techniques about OBEs, it is always the same barrier that holds you back from achieving the results you want: fear. But I have remembered again the books from Robert Monroe where he speaks about how the fear can be overcome, and how you realise lately that there was nothing to be afraid of.
So, as I was unable to execute the real separation, I have asked my mind to do it for me. Imagination is a powerful tool, as powerful as real experience, and I am not afraid at all of imagining anything. In the past, I have visualised myself travelling, flying, km away, visiting people I care about it, in their sleeps. So I’ve said: this is the same. I have then visualise myself up of my body, looking down and seeing me sleeping on the bed. This is the first thing you see when you perform an OBE and personally is one of the things I am most afraid of. Guess it is part of an old belief system of mine deep rooted still somewhere on my subconscious mind. To fight this fear I have given all priority and control to the left hemisphere, the practical and analytical one, and I have kept talking to myself.
“This is nothing, you know. You are more than your body and every night when you dream you do this same process without even realising it, so you can do it also now consciously”. At this moment the voice on the tape was inviting me to float a bit higher, but it was not working for me. In one side I was trying to convince myself of something that my fears on the other side did not want me to do. So I have decided to go on with the mental projection.
That was easy. I have imagined myself floating out, leaving the room through the window and see me floating on the air, with my building behind me, and the room and I sleeping peacefully over there. And suddenly they were there. I have no idea who they are, but there were several beings floating at a relatively safe distance (so not to be afraid of them). I do not recognise any energy except for the presence of my spiritual guide, which helps me always in my meditations and which whom I call Ozar. He tells me everything is ok and that they could help me if I overcome the initial fear.
I told them that I know they can help me. I have read many books and cases where there is help from the astral, they pull you out. But I tell him mentally that if I feel myself being “pulled” out of my body, I will panic terribly, and they told me they are aware of it so they won’t do anything. It must be me who manages to perform the OBE.
So, as my mental projection goes on and I am so nicely floating out of my window, I feel the presence of something that asks me if I want help. I feel something friendly, I ask who is it, and I seem to notice something like “Gogi” (no idea what it is or means). It is a being, seems kind of guide, and asks me if I want to be guided. I reply yes. But I do not know where or for what. At this moment I felt as I was in the middle of something flying very fast. No. In reality, is whatever it is by my side, like two grey walls, which is moving extremely faster. I do not feel anything.
I think I am offering some resistance and at this moment I hear the voice on the tape telling me to go to sleep and rest peacefully, is the end of the session, so I somehow imagine myself moving back to my body. I notice my hands and arms completely asleep as I try to move them. I stretch myself and wake up.
I feel ok and comfortable for having been able to reason with myself about that fear. Previously in other attempts I simply could not do anything because of it. So tonight will try again!
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9:13 pm on October 5th, 2009
Hi there! I’ve been trying Mr Monroes’ tapes for a while, but I’m having great difficulty pulling out the energy baloon, do you have any advice on that to give to me? Do you feel the baloon during your day when you prepare it in the morning?
Great blog, I’ll look forward to creating one of mine myself ;)
Horacio.
6:31 am on October 6th, 2009
Hi Horacio, just pretend it is there. Really. If you have trouble visualizing or feeling the ballon, pretend the energy is there, around you. Just command the energy from your aura or from within you to create a shield around you and even if you do not notice it, the ballon will be created.
Then it is just a matter of practice and time till you notice it more and more, I kind of feel something around me so I know it is there, and I simply imaging myself being surrounded by this energy, nothing more!
regards
David
7:19 pm on October 21st, 2009
Hi David!
First of all, thanks for sharing your experiences with TMI CDs, it is of a great help for people like me wanting to know what to expect on each CD.
We, my girlfriend and me, are trying the “exploration of sleep” CD and we are having troubles to get an OBE. We are trying since several weeks already, at a frequency of between 2 and 4 times a week.
In my case, I find it difficult to stay in focus 10 since when I get deeply relaxed I see changing shapes of changing colors, as if I were dazzled and the light stayed in my retina. It is hard for me to ignore them and sometimes I am tempted to stare at them, so consciously moving my eyes. Sometimes I see rings of different colors, one inside another as if I were moving forward in a tunnel. I remember that it happened to me when I was a child and at that time I was afraid of an eyes problem, but it stopped and it has started again now that I meditate (I guess that maybe I usually felt asleep before being aware of this happening and I realize due to meditation).
But this is not the only blocking problem since my girlfriend does not experience this phenomena and she does not get an OBE neither.
I guess for you next article that you finally succeeded in OBE. How did you success? Do you try to empty your mind? And what do you look at?
When Robert Monroe says to roll over like a log floating in water, I try to imagine myself like a chicken in an oven, turning on myself and having the central axis from my head up to my feet (we do it staying on bed). Is it OK?
And when he says to detach I try to imagine that my whole body is still laying but going upward. At this moment, my eyelids start flickering very fast and sometimes I see my room… What are we supposed to do?
My girlfriend does not fear to get out of her body since she already experienced one a day she fainted. I personally felt fully identified with you when I read the fears you explained in your article. I think I overcame them with the CD “release and recharge” since I do not experience since them any more the anxiety of finding myself out when Robert Monroe says the words “detach easily”.
Do you have any other advise? By the way, do you know if there is some explanation for this color shapes?
Thanks in advance!
Javier
9:33 pm on October 21st, 2009
Hola Javier!
well, Exploration of Sleep is not supposed to induce OBEs, that is still too soon. I did not get the OBE experience, but a projection of myself, meaning, I imagined myself, visualised and let my mind set the scene from an external point of view, but I remained conscious on my body knowing that it was not an OBE at all.
In order to get to experience the first OBE stages, you need to reach at least Wave III Freedom, where I am starting right now, there is a set of exercises there that may help, but first you need to complete all the steps in Focus 12 to get used to it.
Just go ahead! bit by bit, and you will get it! I am sure! I will share also my results as soon as I move forward with the new exercises!
regards
6:37 pm on October 22nd, 2009
Muchas gracias por las explicaciones! En efecto, tras leer las instrucciones ahora veo más claro que se trata simplente de imaginar.
Nos das esperanza, empezábamos a perderla :)
Gracias de nuevo, esperamos que nos hagas un retorno sobre tu OBE.
Javier